Sitting In Her Nowhere Land

So I guess with the blogging returns the bitching. But with the week I've had, I really think that I deserve it.

The world is not at my command.
Not today anyhow.

I've been without my vehicle, my precious decepticar, for almost a week now. The gas line is frozen and it has not been nearly warm enough to get the beast roaring again.

I'm so broke it's not even funny, and if my car troubles turn out to not be gas line issues then I am going to remain just as broke with car maintenance costs.

My step mom's uncle just died. I feel for her, really. The man was a cool motherfucker, so much pep. However, not to sound insensitive, with the whole family leaving tomorrow for the funeral I have no parental units to rely on for transportation for the duration of the weekend. I can't afford to miss any work. It really seems like every time I have car issues they are out of town.

My aunt is dying. She's in total denial about it, hasn't told anyone... not even her own daughters. With every shell of information that comes up about the issue more tears are shed simply for our lack of the knowledge of the severity and the lack of knowledge that we all have about her condition. We know she has cancer that started in her lungs and has progressed through her entire body... however we have no time frame for her remaining time, we have no information regarding whether or not she will become incapacitated, and the whole thing is a messy, teary wreck. She needs to start making decisions before she loses the ability to.

And on top of it all... the day is Valentine's Day... my least favorite day of the year. Not because I am single because that's far from the truth, but because I think it is the most ridiculous excuse to do something nice for somebody. Do it any other fucking day of the year.

I have a feeling I'm going to need a shoulder really, really soon here.